Friday, October 9, 2009

impossible love

there's a line from a movie i have never seen that my dear friend often quotes when we are talking about being moms. the mom in this movie looks at her daughter, sighs, & says "impossible love". if you are a mom, my guess is that resonates with you. how can you even describe what loving your kid looks like? what it feels like? it bursts, aches, frustrates, rejoices, thanks, tires, energizes. it can make you feel crazy one moment & more sane than you've ever felt the next. i think about this often as i attempt to mother eliot while missing him. hazel while currently on the couch. #3 while not yet having met him/her.
i think that there is a lot of mommy refining taking place here on this couch. i don't pretend to totally understand all that He is teaching me. but what i do know is that i am not the mom i long to be and it has nothing to do with this bedrest journey.

for about the first 3 weeks of bedrest i didn't have our camera. i wasn't totally sure where i last had it & asking someone to search for the camera was low on the list of all the millions of things other people are daily doing for us. the other day a friend brought his fancy camera by for us to borrow. i am beyond grateful. here are some of the latest pics taken by a mom who loves her kids with that impossible love...

teeth




#3



a little...well, a lot...of bonding time with dad lately



side ponytail (& when mom's on bedrest, pants are totally optional)

10 comments:

kaw said...

Love all the pictures of Hazel! And love the pictures of Mooney Baby #3 also! I know it must be so hard, but I'm so impressed by the great mom job you've done and continue to do! I'm proud to be your friend!

Anonymous said...

yeah for pictures! Not that I pretend to fully understand how frustrating this must be- but when someone asked how you were doing, I said good considering it's really hard/frustrating parenting a one year old from a couch!!!- You are doing great not majoring on the minors (even though to us mom, everything is important!)- and allowing people to help! Hopefully it won't be long until you can kick us all out and have Ms. H back to yourself!!- But thanks for sharing her in the mean time!

much love,
Bek

Joy said...

LOVE it! The pants optional thing is awesome. Always love seeing your heart.

Lizzie said...
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Lizzie said...

Hi there Mooney Family,
Your family's story is an amazing testimony of God's goodness. We have been deeply moved... and have shared your igniter video of precious Eliot with everyone we know... What an amazing gift it is to be a mom..... I treasure it everyday. Your son's story has impacted my life in a way that words cannot describe...
You are a wonderful mom.... and You anf your little one growing in your womb have been in our thoughts and prayers.... and we are praying that the Lord would bless beautiful Hazel on her 1st Birthday on the 14th. Blessings to your beautiful family.

All Because of Him,

Jeremy, Liz, Josiah & Alizah Trostle from Hershey, PA

Heather said...

Lovin' that "pants are optional" on Hazel right now. You're doing a good job of not sweating the small stuff Ginny...keep it up!

Randi said...

Ginny, you look amazing....Hazel is such a beauty!!!
I was on bedrest when pregnant with the twins. They were my firsts, so I can only imagine how difficult it must be with a little baby runnng around (or how she soon will!). Take care!
Love,
Randi Booth

layne said...

Hazel is such a cutie!

Brady said...

We watched the video on Igniter Media again in our youth group last night. Wow! I can cry just typing this comment. It is so powerful! My oldest brother had a little girl that lived for 2 months with the same syndrom. She was so tiny... Thank you for sharing your life with us. God bless!

Monkey Momma said...

I think when chubba-chubba legs are that cute, pants SHOULD be optional! :-) She's beautiful! And I love witnessing you going through this again. Amazing.